Every day's a new beginning. I simply use New Year's to celebrate with others.

I left the bag too long in the water. I hurried as fast as I could, but all that was left for me to do was drink my bitter tea.

¹ Have mercy on me, O God,
 according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
   blot out my transgressions.
² Wash away all my iniquity
   and cleanse me from my sin.

 ³ For I know my transgressions,
   and my sin is always before me.
⁴ Against you, you only, have I sinned    and done what is evil in your sight;
so you are right in your verdict
   and justified when you judge.
⁵ Surely I was sinful at birth,
   sinful from the time my mother conceived me. ⁶ Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;
   you taught me wisdom in that secret place.

 ⁷ Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
   wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
⁸ Let me hear joy and gladness;    let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
⁹ Hide your face from my sins
   and blot out all my iniquity.

 ¹⁰ Create in me a pure heart, O God,    and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
¹¹ Do not cast me from your presence
   or take your Holy Spirit from me.
¹² Restore to me the joy of your salvation
   and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

 ¹³ Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
   so that sinners will turn back to you.
¹⁴ Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
   you who are God my Savior,
   and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
¹⁵ Open my lips, Lord,
   and my mouth will declare your praise.
¹⁶ You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
   you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
¹⁷ My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
   a broken and contrite heart
   you, God, will not despise.

 ¹⁸ May it please you to prosper Zion,
   to build up the walls of Jerusalem.
¹⁹ Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,
   in burnt offerings offered whole;
   then bulls will be offered on your altar.

Don't Pinch Me: The Story of my Weight and Me

When going grocery shopping with my aunty today I made a lot of healthy choices. But then I made the mistake of picking up a box of Dole ice pops. My mom has been commenting on how I eat sweet things like Au'some fruit snacks (like 1-2 of those small pouches a day) and how it doesn't give my blood sugar a chance to "regulate itself" or something like that. Now she was commenting on it again. Then my aunt reached and pinched some of my arm fat.

Why am I writing about this? Because these are people that I care about who don't even realize how much I've been through with my self-esteem and my body. I am a naturally thick girl. I have full thighs that touch each other, and I'd probably have to starve myself to get them not to touch. I hated them ever since puberty in 5th grade. I have hips that curve and that I love. I have a comparatively small waist that I think is gorgeous. My arms are a little thicker, especially when I have them close to my body. My breasts are proportional to me in the most lovely of ways.

So why do people who love me comment on my weight? My mom says it's because she wants me to be healthy. I've tried to explain this to her numerous times that I am comfortable with gaining a few pounds. It's a cycle. She then says that I get crabby when I gain weight. I get crabby because she won't stop saying things like "those pants are tighter on you", "didn't that shirt used to button well?", and "you gained weight you know". Then when I say that I'm comfortable with my body she says "oh, well, we don't really have the extra money for a new wardrobe". Not having money sucks.
(My mom and weight seriously needs a whole other post.)

Now my aunt, too?! Pinching my arm?

I've vomited meals, yo-yoed diet, binged on pills, cut myself and been through so much crap. No one knows everything or how often except me and God. Ever since I was young I wasn't "skinny" like the other girls and people would often guess my age to be older because I also behaved older than my age.

Now, my letter to the world is:
I'm a thick girl and proud. You don't have to like the way I am. All I ask is that you keep your comments (and pinchy fingers) to yourself.


You don't know what anyone else has been through or is currently going through, so who are you to comment on the way they are?

Anyway, what are some ways that it may feel as though you are improving in one area and others (maybe even those close to you) are trying to bring you down?

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My first dinner

That I cooked all by myself.

It looked GREAT, but in reality it was terrible.
The chicken was practically raw, the green beans were stiff, and I almost choked on the rice. I had fun though, and I'll know better next time. :)

It turned out to be a good day

We did the laundry and hung it on the line and dried it. No more problem.

Truvia Natural Sweetner - Sweetness Stories.

I saw the extended version of this commercial while watching Dr. Oz just now. I really like the song and the longer commercial was really cute. If anyone knows what I'm talking about and has found it online, please tell me :)

My comfy bed

Guiltily, I lay down.
ignoring pleas to start the day.

I hate it. We need to do laundry, but last time the dryers in our apartment didn't work well and we don't want to waste money trying again. We don't want to have to wait and catch the bus with such a large load of clothes. Hopefully a cousin will take us.

Video: workout Bollywood-style - Live Well - NHS Choices

Video: workout Bollywood-style - Live Well - NHS Choices

Thought those dance moved you see in Bollywood films are pretty cool?

Well this video breaks down the essentials for you! :)

Enjoy! I know I am hehe :3 A fun workout at last! 

Cheers to seltzer water!

Zero calories and good for my health? It got my attention! :D
After buying my first bottle in Wal-Mart, good fortune caught me and Publix had their brand on sale for .50 USD a bottle! :] (But one get one free at .99 USD per bottle).

I bought six bottles. One was a Club Soda, which is my favorite now and the rest were lime or raspberry flavored (a.k.a. they had a lime or raspberry taste going down and an odd aftertaste... not bad, just odd - you know?)

After some Googling, I realized that you could make carbonated water at home with machines like these:

http://www.amazon.com/Sodastream-Fountain-Soda-Maker-Starter/dp/B001KYT6CS

http://www.williams-sonoma.com/products/sodastream-penguin-water-carbonator/

These machines cost about 100-200 USD. The main thing that bothers me is that the product descriptions  usually say that a "carbonator" is included that makes about 60L. After that one runs out, where do I buy more? Do I have to buy a specific kind?

If you have answers to these questions or any general statements please comment below :3

P.S. This seems like a great website for water-carbonating products: http://www.sodastreamusa.com/default.aspx

I wish I was short and well-proportioned;

what I really want is to be called cute.

It would be nice to be referred to as "something precious" and have you keep me warm.

To have handsome men want to protect me,

is truly a dream to come true.

I wish they would look down at me and say "aw, how adorable. Sweet, sweet girl."

That's why I am short in my behavior.

Submissive and smiling am I.

Waiting upon others as much as I can

though the mask tilts unsightly every now and then.

That is why my heart flutters when you say "what a sweet, sweet girl",

quietly, as though I can't hear.

Sugar High

Ate a pack of Au'some fruit nuggets and then I started talking about my "crazy faith" and how SNSD's "Sorry Sorry" version is/was BEAUTIFUL! my mother remarked that if she didn't know better she would think I was on a "sugar high" haha :3




Anywho, while I was looking for some cute candy icons on Photobucket I stumbled across theeee -dun dun du duuh!!-

Featured Image of the Day!

Isn't it adorable? Courtesy of hitomi_no_hikaru on Photobucket! Please message me if you are the original owner of this image and wish to have this removed :3

Early Morning Parentification

This morning I was greeted by a nice breakfast my mom had warmed up for me, accompanied by a glass of orange juice. Immediately after my first few bites she began to unload, talking about the reltionship dilemma of another family member and her own situation. This was just a few minutes after I had woken up. I have discussed this with her more and more lately, her venting or discussing negative situations so early in my day; however, she still hasn't caught on. At last, I finally said something like "Isn't there any other news? Like nice, positive stuff?", and I repeated this several times to show I meant this earnestly and not as a personal insult towards her behavior. My mother still seemed mildly offended, though I had done my best not to. It's just me and her in the home and she doesn't really have anyone else to vent to. It's been like this since I was a child, her always venting to me. I don't like this parentification, and will she ever realize that?

Tearful gifts

I remember how I cried when I received a gift in the mail from my grandmother's friend and daughter after leaving my mother's homeland. I was caught off guard because it was several bracelets that I ad truly wanted while browsing through a store. I think I didn't have enough money to purchase them, but I'm not sure. They might have told me that they would buy them for me, but I'm not sure.

All I know is that  when I opened that package the tears started flowing as I bawled "They remembered!" I felt so loved, knowing that even after I had left that country, they still remembered me. Across the ocean, their care for me warmed my heart. I cherish that moment infinitely.


The phone call was beautiful afterwards, too. They were surprised by my reaction, heheh :'3

Unraveling

It's funny how all the knots I thought would suffocate me are now quickly unraveling into harmless ropes.

I'm so happy I have funny, kind friends. My classes are going great. >3.8 unweighted GPA, here I come! >:D This is going to be the best semester, ever! 

A's in all my classes, I speak it and command it!!

My personality
is just
a combination
of strengths and weaknesses.

Florida Mom Arrested for Encouraging her Daughter's Fist Fight

Click to read the story and view the video evidence: http://www.nydailynews.com/news/national/2010/09/24/2010-09-24_florida_mom_april_newcomb_arrested_after_egging_on_teen_daughters_catfight_shock.html

I'm a teenager, as this woman's daughter was.

In my opinion, it's better to punch each other and let it all out than
A) let it stress the kid out and give them an ulcer
B) having them play mind games with the other person and/or spread rumors
or
C) letting all that tension stay in like A) but instead have a Columbine incident

Sometimes, kids should just go old school and let out a good old-fashioned can of Whoop Ass™. I know my parents and grandparents used to, and they turned out fine. Anyone else remember hearing stories of a dad or mom saying "That kid beat you up and you just took it?" and then beating the kid too?! Well, what did they do afterward? The parent would say "Now you go and get 'em!"

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Pertaining to the Florida mom, I say release her from jail, please. She's probably just old school. If none of the girls involved in the fight are seriously injured, why should someone be penalized for their eye-for-an-eye belief system? Sure, there are better alternatives than the ones I listed, but I don't think they're obvious or even easy to follow through on for most people.

In summation:
Fist fight, get a few black eyes, and everybody moves on.
(if you truly keep it old school and the people involved are "normal")

Making an Informal Grade Appeal

Has anyone  had to do this before? If so, please comment below :)

LOL funniest YouTube comment EVER!!!

Its a set really xD

Here's the video:


Someone commented first saying: that was nothing but a bunch of random movies put together to make it look like digimon. WHO THE HELL YOU TRYING TO FOOL!!!?


Then someone replied saying: really are you serious?(sarcastic)

(another replied saying:  obviously not you, your just too smart for him, but it just wasn't as funny xD I Lol'ed at the other response xD)

The closer I get to God, the less I care about what other people think of me. :)

I want to go to a valley and yell. Somewhere where no other human being can hear me. I want to yell and scream and cry. to get rid of these feelings in my chest and the pains in my stomach. To stop being on the verge, but to finally go over the edge with a safety net at the bottom. Anyone else ever feel like this?

So many mean words spilled out. Delibrately thrown like darts. The wound was hurting too long, and that person kept picking at the scab.
It would have hurt to keep silent.

The line between warm and stifling

is very fine. I walked into my optometrist's ofice not too long ago. Where I live is kind of on the cold side, maybe about 50 degrees Fahrenheit. That's not bad, you know? When I walked into the waiting room it was STIFLING. As though there wasn't ANY airflow whatsoever. But it's okay now - maybe one of the employees finally said "Turn on the AC!" So, has anyone reading this experienced these "stuffy" places during this season? If so, how bothersome do you think they are?

Aww... Narsha

She's so nice and what she said on the spot so quickly was perfect!

http://www.allkpop.com/2010/12/high-school-student-confesses-to-narsha

I'm going to choose to let my hair go natural!

I'll write more about this later, but for now: sleep :)
Good night, everyone!

Pokémon of the Moment:

Quagsire!

and let's give a hip-hip hooray for Cherrygrove City! Those people are definitely honest with that whole entire "let me pick up my items from the river thing" (http://www.watchcartoononline.com/pokemon-the-johto-journeys-episode-11-english-dubbed).

Summer Wars!

Definitely going to check this out!

I'm so happy FUNimation has aYouTube channel now ♥ My friend and I have been watching Hetalia on it and the quality is beautiful. I wish more companies would realize that the spread of fandom promotes sales, so post more videos!

Anywho, the film is from the same people who made the Girl Who Leapt Through Time, which I enjoyed! The pacing was nice and a nice... feeling to it. It was very casual and nice :)

Anywho, watch the trailer above and tell me if you're interested in watching Summer Wars, like me (this goes for anyone out there, heheh [as usual]).

*edit*

By the way, isn't the quality of these dubs AMAZING now?! I think it all started with Fullmetal Alchemist haha. The catalyst for a dubbing revolution - better character and voice actor matching, ne?

My love for Pokémon

No, seriously, I wanna get every single trading card and keep them in several volumes.

The Monstore has a Furret card for .95 USD.

Anywho, I was searching for Johto and Master Quest's theme songs and YouTube again so I could include them in this post; but I found a random episode online that I'm currently watching: http://www.watchcartoononline.com/pokemon-the-johto-journeys-episode-11-english-dubbed. Ah, good times, good times.

Anyone know where I can watch the full series online, by the way?

Here you go!:

Anyone else love it when Ash, Misty, and Brock hop into the scene at about :06? x3 I think I actually tried imitating that (staying in the air and all!) as a kid. Some people say that the animé should have ended after Hoenn.... maybe they're right. I always liked Misty, so it was a bummer when they had to part ways ;w; It just wasn't the same!!

Oh, yeah! and I'm currently reading Honey and Clover from chapter 1 on (scratch) :)

♥ such a great series

Long time no post :P

Hey guys, I've been using Xanga. I guess it just feels good to communicate with others and get commented on evey now and then haha :P Hope everyone is having a happy holiday break. ~Nu

Just finished watching "How to Train Your Dragon"!

Loved it! I expected it to be a comedy and for some reason I thought the dragon would be able to talk.
I truly enjoy the plot and everything and even even the mildly realistic ending.
Ah, these 3-D animated movies just keep on getting better! (3-D not like with the goggles, but 3D as in compared to "flat"  traditiona; 2-D like "Secret of NIMH").

Anyway, on to lists:
Why I thought it would be a comedy:

• A skinny guy who seems like a bit of an outcast finds (what I assumed to be) a talking dragon
• On that tangent, I thought this dragon would be of the witty sort that makes a lot of wise cracks
• The girl looked tough, so I guessed that some stereotypical gender-role swap would take place
• (like she would be the tough one kind of being the dominant one in the relationship)
• The dragon had a bright-eyed, "cute", lizard-ish kind of look. Looked waaaaay different in the movie if you ask me. I was like jet-black and quite majestic. I think a lot of the movie posters made it seem as though it was dark blue with light- blue eyes. (compare the picture above with the image below)

• The title: "How to Train Your Dragon"; sounds like a light-hearted fun children's movie - right? Right?

Boy oh boy do these animated films nowadays go above and beyond my expectations. First Pixar's Up and now Dreamwork's How to Train Your Dragon. If studios keep "stuff like this" up I might actually stop waiting for the DVDs to come out and see them in theaters!

What to I mean by "stuff like this"?

• Family friendly - no cursing, no unnecessary violence or nudity
• (I'll make another blog post sometime with what I define as "family friendly" ;) )
• Deeper meanings that aren't spoon fed to the viewer - enough said
• (I thought How to Train Your Dragon was going to be like that - boy way I surprised!)
• Can be watched by all ages
• Kids can watch it now, clap and have fun, and then watch it again when they're older and go "Oh my goodness! All that was in there?! Who knew the plot was this deep?"
• Yeah, I love films like that too
• Parents can watch it right now and actually care enough to go "Shhhh, kiddo! I'm watching the film!"

I'll most likely edit this post later. Ciao :)

Craving Music

I'm really looking for a new mp3 player now. I don't want to buy anything from an online site even though they have good deals because I don't want to go through all the hassle of shipping it back to the vendor if something does wrong with the device. Instead, I'm looking through stores that I can actually visit.
The three main places I've looked at are:

• Wal-Mart
• Target
• and K-Mart

I haven't actually visitied the stores, but I look at their respective websites. The reason why I chose these stores are because of:

• Low prices (except for Target of course, but it's still...)
• Accessibility to their stores
• Easy to view reviews on their websites (I can clearly see what other people think about their products and I like how Wal-Mart allows you to post videos/pictures in reviews)

The last mp3 player/PMP (personal media player) I owned was a Nextar K40. I got it for my 16th borthday from one of my mom's friends. It's great, and I love all the features it had.It:

• has an FM Player
• has a relatively large screen (about 3-4 inches diagonally)
• plays videos and had a picture viewer with excellent quality
• I could read eBooks on it
• music quality was good and had a functional equalizer
• fit well in my hand
• memory slot! even though it didn't have any built in memory, the SD card slot was a solid plus (benefit). On the go, I had the possibility of bringing a ton (or a few, haha :) ) of SD cards and just switching them

All in all, it was a GREAT PMP, and it only cost about $40 dollars (excluding the SD card and the express shipping my mom's friend paid to have it delivered before my birthday came around).
Sure, it had a few quirks, but that was okay. They were minor things like the so-so text quality for eBooks and the lack of line breaks (might have been another way I could have went around that, but the eBook feature was a plus either way). And on menus, "No" meant "Yes" and "Yes" meant "No" (took me a while to figure out that when deleting things, lol).
BUT after a while certain "issues" started showing up, like it kept on deleting the files on my SD card and pretty soon it just wouldn't turn on at all.

The Nextar warranty covers product replacement for a full year, but I have to mail it to them myself. That's the one thing that's just "blah" :P But I'll send it before the end of the next week! That's my new personal deadline, so yeah! I'll tell you how it goes guys, and if push comes to shove I'll tell you what I'm looking for in a personal media player and which products catch my eye on one of the websites I listed :)

Listening to: Konna ni Chikaku de




I love the lyrics so much and Crystal Kay's voice is beautiful!

More fluids!

I spoke with my grandma today, which made me real happy :) Ever since I was little I've gotten along well with her and when I talk with her we can truly relate. She's the only person who knows my mother as well as I do, and we both love her so she's especially great to talk to.

I told her about my plans to go to Japan so she's going to pray for me and she fasts every Monday. Thank God! Nothing happens without a reason :) Timing was perfect because today, the same day she called!, I found blogs from students taking part in the program I want to attend. I'm so excited and I truly enjoy reading what they have to write. So many emotions and it feels as though I'm actually getting to see them as the people behind the keyboards :) I'm searching for more right now.

Anyway, I've decided to drink more water lately. I'm actually going to stick with it this time too :) Just need to find a water bottle, haha :P

Still looking for a job. I'm great with computers (including formal classes in Microsoft Office and the Adobe Creative Suite of products) Or rather, I'm praying for an awesome money-making idea. I think I'll wear a cute outfit on Friday or maybe sometime earlier this week and look for a job at Hollister or another store in the mall. What I'm really hoping for is a tutoring job though. Maybe I'll find something *really* good, maybe charging like $10 per hour.

Well, going to finish homework and study some Japanese. Oh, and looking for a low-cost, good MP3 player so I can listen to my Japanese CDs I've had for a while now. E-mail me or comment with recommendations.

xxxo,
K. Nu

Current favorite shows:

• The Mysteries of Alfred Hedgehog 
• Bravestarr
• He-Man and the Masters of the Universe

Yep, I'm enjoying Qubo :) Watched Secret of NIMH this morning on This. Well, about half of its duration really. But that reminded me to make of "Movies I'm Going to Watch Online" list.

Sigh... I'll do homework tomorrow. Good night and I'll write more tomorrow :)

Batman's voice

Watching "Batman" now - that movie from about 10 or 20 years ago starring Jack Nicholson. The whole entire scene with Vicki Vale and Batman after the joker scares her... it makes me wonder "Why doesn't she recognize Bruce Wayne's voice?"

I think about my crush (my crush, mind you, not even boyfriend or anything like that) and I think if I met him in his hypothetical super-hero mode, I'd recognize his voice. I mean, if he's not using voice-altering softeware or something like that, why wouldn't you?

Same thing with those masks that cover only the eyes or the top of the hero/villain's face - is it really that hard to recognize people?

Pfft, now the movie's at that part where Bruce is trying to explain to her that he's Batman. C'mon, man! If she hasn't realized it by now, just leave well-enough alone.

-ignores all the arguments about love and what-not-

Planning and Praying

Wow, a month without posts...how disappointing :(

But I shall continue!

Updates:

• Moved into a new apartment; better neighborhood and no more carpet, yay!
• Picked classes for next semester - to be honest, I chose 3 classes instead of 4 because (next point)
• Going to study abroad in Japan next year!
• This is what I'm praying about A LOT. I feel nervous, but it's the opportunity of a lifetime, isn't it? I already have one year of college credits towards a bachelor's/associate's degree and all I need for high school graduation is American Government ( a one semester course/.5 credit). 
• I haven't told my mom yet, and I'm trying to get a job so I can get the $50 application fee :< I'm great with computers and I'm highly adaptable, so all I really need is favor.
• So my 2 options are:
• stay and get an associate's degree when I graduate
• or go and spend my senior year in Japan
• I thought about it, and my mom and I... it's... burdensome a lot of the time, so if I'm not truly happy here, then I might as well go. A year's worth of college credit is more than what most high school students have and in addition to that I'm an AP scholar - isn't that great? I'm proud of myself, and I've wanted to "break free" and be independent and I've loved other cultures for such a long time (particularly Japan) so why shouldn't I go? I prayed and cried, and I'm almost 100% sure God gave me peace about it - it's just the typical sense of uncertainty that makes me think more than I have to at times.
• Prom: Either way, at my current school, prom seems to "flop" a lot, so I think I might go with someone from my old school this year to get it over with.
• In short, I'm happy and positively pensive. I found a great new friend, but again, God had granted me wisdom.

xoxo,

K. Nu

New freedom

The best part of my new school can be summed up in one word: freedom. I have tons of free time during the day (about 1/5 huors) in which I can finish up homework or study. I've felt so at ease lately it's beautiful. The campus is huge, too. At first it seemed a bit daunting, but I've quickly found it easier to get around day-by-day. By the end of the week I'll be an expert, haha :)
     Also rare up until this point, I can say that  I love every, single class I have. The teachers are all great, and most even have a funny sense of humor. For the first time in years (or maybe even ever) I enjoy math. My teacher is nothing like my old one and makes everything real easy to understand. There's also been a change in me as well, thank God. I don't worry as much about what people think as long as it lines up with God's Word and I'm not afraid to ask questions.
     All in all, I'm really happy with how things are.  When it comes to things elsewhere, I know God has a plan and he won't let me down :)

"I know my God is able, and I know his lobe never fails."

Dinner and paper - yay!

I just got back from my aunt's house for Sunday dinner. She cooked this time and it was DELICIOUS! There were rice and beans, chicken with a Thai curry sauce, chicken pot roast, oxtail (I think it was brown-stew), fried ripe plantains, salad, and homemade whole-grain (or wheat maybe, either way it was fiber-licious haha :P ) rolls she made. I'm probably missing one or two things, but that's okay since I think I listed most of my favorites haha. For dessert we had three-flavor ice cream with a gelatin that had fruit pieces in it. For the beverage we had a homemade fruit drink :) As you can guess, it was all pretty yummy ;) And it was especially cool because afterward my aunt gave me a bag of school supplies. The best part is that I haven't gone school supply shopping yet and I didn't even had papers and pens for school tomorrow. Thank God, when I looked through the bag my aunt gave me there were notebooks, loose-sheet paper, folders, a highlights, a glue stick, pencils, pens, and a pencil sharpener. Thank God!

Laundromat or no laundromat?

My fall semester is beginning again tomorrow :) I'm real excited. I'm going to a new school. To be honest, I was a little bit nervous at first but now I'm just excited. It feels great to be outside of the house now. Distance does the heart well with some family members, haha ;P I picked out my outfit for tomorrow and it's getting washed now :) I wonder which one's the majority - people who have washed their clothes at a laundromat or those who haven't? In developed countried I mean. If I meant this to be directed at every country in the world I'm sure the answer would be those who haven't - a lot of people don't have electricity so I think most people do their laundry by hand. But in MDCs, it seems as though barely anyone does their laundry by hand. It's either they do it at a laundromat, at home, or at a friend's home. So I wonder what the majority is - laundromat or no laundromat?

Mobile blogging at last!

I'd like to give a big thanks to the people at Blogger and Windows Live. Blogger Staff, you made things so easy and cool on here - and for free, too! Windows Live staff: thanks for constantly updating your services. I love the features and I truly enjoy the new themes :) Especially for my e-mail inbox.  :linebreak::tab: Okay, after displaying my sincere gratitude, I'll say why: I'm finally blogging from my phone now :) For the longest time I was trying to figure out a way how, and last night I did. Through Windows Live Mobile (for basic WAP browsers like the one I'm using now) I'm e-mailing this post through my Mail2Blogger. Awesome-ness, right? ;] My mobile phone doesn't have an enter or tab key, so no line breaks or paragraphs, but oh well. I can edit these posts when I'm on the computer again. All the really matters to me is that I can get these ideas out while they're fresh, so yay! Well that's it for now~ xoxo Nu

Prestige over happiness?

     I have been thinking about my future as it pertains to college. One of the major questions that keeps coming up in my mind is whether or not I should choose based on prestige or pure happiness more. There's this university I really like (the attitude of the alumni in their reviews is just contagious :) ) , but it's not an Ivy or Stanford. I'll finish this blog with these thoughts:

• When being perfectly honest, a HYPS school seems to open doors, right?
• I'm planning on majoring in Neuroscience in a Pre-Med track, so will it really make a difference?

& sorry about not posting during the past few days - if I was able to do mobile posting easily I would have but I haven't figured out a good work-around by now.

Currently listening to: Camisado - Panic! at the Disco
Current mood: Stressed out
Motto of the Minute: "Help me, Father in heaven; You're the only one who can."
Random fact about me today: I prefer drinking beverages to eating :) My cravings and a desire to keep up my metabolism are what usually get me heheh :3

Getting better everyday

Happy for my "Arima" already!

     Feeling stressed out right now, but you know me (as a figure of speech, of course :) ) so I'm still looking at the bright side. Things are getting better everyday - I might not be able to see or even sense it, but they are! I've been coping with things the easy, feel-good way: Facebook apps, music, and Fanfiction... lots, and lots of Fanfiction. I use Fanfiction mobile formatted by Google (the story chapters get cut off if I don't) and I've found a particularly long, well-written alternate-reality one :) Been totally immersed in it, haha.
      Well, I don't want to type anything negative or unhappy on here so I'll keep it short. I mean, I know for sure that I don't have the worst possible life out there, but it still doesn't ease the pain, you know? And I know I'm supposed to press into God more, but it just feels so hard :'(
      The one thought even now that makes my eyes well up to this day is just that I wish I could have better parents. All I want are just two parents who love me, hold me, and understand me. But it's no use whining, right? :') I'll look forward into the future and do my best to stop looking behind. (And sad music doesn't help either!)


(Btw, with the picture's caption - it's a reference to Kare Kano, haha :) Arima's the guy in the video - it's the ideal romance, haha, and I want one too! :P )




Currently listening to watching: This :)

Kare Kano is the best series EVER! Or at least I'll always love it :3
Current mood: Feeling as though I could cry any second, but still okay :)
Motto of the Minute: "Hang in there - things will be better very soon."
Random fact about me today: I think rabbits (the big ones for sure)are the best pets to have ever. Allow me to give you an example:

Yeah, my rabbit rocks ;) She hopped up there all by herself! And she's so smart and cute -rant trails off-

Sorry, sorry, & and I'm back! Updates galore!

Sorry I haven't posted anything in a long time (over a month!) so as part of the apology, I'll tell you the updates up-front without any fluff :)

What happened to my Summer List from the last post? Oy, it worked out perfectly thank God, but only in what was truly important. There's still time (about three weeks) so there's still time to scramble all the other, less-important things together, right? :P
Okay, here's how things went step by step. (All the "1"s are my comments, haha :) )

1. Truly study my Bible (memorize a TON of verses) and pray daily
1. Uhhh, yeah... It's embarrassing how I didn't stick with that one.
2. Earn college credit
1. WHOO! The BEST, most IMPORTANT part! I got into and completed Summer semester in Chemistry for both the lab AND lecture!  -AIIIIIIIIIIIIII- :D And I got A's in both! Thank God!! All glory be to Him! Now I'm going back in Fall with those credits claimed and done :D I'm so happy and thankful to Him that words cannot even describe it - at least not the ones I know :)
3. Learn how to swim
1. Not YET! But there's still time! I paddled a bit today in a lake with my aunt holding my hands, so I'm definitely making progress, yeah!
4. Learn how to dance (really cool-ly)
1. Definitely got the rhythm :) I can even go close to the floor now without toppling over haha :)
5. Cook a curry dish well
1. Not yet... maybe during the Spring semester I'll take a cooking class for Elective credit? Heheh :3
6. Get into the habit of contacting everyone on a regular basis
1. I did terribly with this one. I'll back into the habit by next week. Someone remind me please? Or maybe I'll put it on my mobile's calendar :) (Oh, random note, I transferred all the pictures from my mobile to my computer for the FIRST TIME - congrats me!)
7. Blog/write a journal entry daily (or at least every other day) 
1. Need I say?
8. Create a song (I'm going to do it one way or another!)
1. Not yet... haven't really been feeling poetic lately, but I'll kick into high gear after Latin :)
9. Learn Trigonometry
1. :S Um... praying, praying, I'll go over it! Yep yep...
10. Go vegetarian and give up processed foods:) Praying that the money works out by then so things work out
1. No comment at the moment :'( 

That's it for now guys! I had a fabulous day - was anging out with my aunt :) It involved lakes, SDHC cards,  and eating out - yahoo! :D

Currently listening to: Breakin' Dishes - Rihanna (it came on while I was going through my Pandora stations and I'm not bothering to change it :P )
Current mood: Somewhat irritated and on edge, but improving with my self-control :)
Motto of the Minute: "Everything's going to work out perfectly" - and it did!
Random fact about me today: Graham crackers are the only food I can binge on without feeling nauseated.

New layout~ [new plans]

Ha ha, hope it isn't too much of an eyesore x3 I think I'll get used to it in time :)

Basically trying to figure out what I need to do with my summer. I felt really depressed about it for a bit then bounced back (a.k.a. still fighting tears right now). I'm going to pray and take an English class though, so thank God :) Also submitting applications all over the place. Worse, worse, worse case scenario that totally isn't happening would just be doing plain old volunteer work so yep~. About 8 weeks left in my summer vacation and I'm not letting them go to waste - time goes by fast you know!

Either way~ I want to write a song and learn how to dance, which leads to my current "Goals for Summer" list:

1. Truly study my Bible (memorize a TON of verses) and pray daily
2. Earn college credit
3. Learn how to swim
4. Learn how to dance (really cool-ly)
5. Cook a curry dish well
6. Get into the habit of contacting everyone on a regular basis
7. Blog/write a journal entry daily (or at least every other day)
8. Create a song (I'm going to do it one way or another!)
9. Learn Trigonometry
10. Go vegetarian and give up processed foods:) Praying that the money works out by then so things work out

Currently listening to: Mr. Boogie - f(x)
Current mood: Smiling & Inspired (as usual)
Motto of the Minute: Everything's going to work out perfectly
Random fact about me today: I hate it when ice cream gets that horrible flavor and it's all icy and not all smooth and nice like how it first was you bought it and ate it


f(x) is so cool live~  I think Luna's my favorite member overall :3

Mercy's fruit

Has been placed in my hands. Next year will be better, I know. :)
Had a great day with my friends today. One of them even bought lunch for me at Subway. Haha, I always need to remember the story behind that. It was this delicious Orchard Chicken one that I got as a half-sub combo. I really didn't want to waste her birthday money, but she insisted. Having friends like that make me almost cry sometimes. I'm going to use my webcam/mic to chat with them after we head to different schools in August and during the summer.
Only one day left in school - I hope that everyone has a great summer. Don't do anything dangerous, okay? Remember that you want to see your friends again in Autumn :) Chúc may mắn, in all your positive endeavors, guys :)
Oh, reconsidering doing volleyball since it is so terribly hot outside. Definitely going to learn at the local indoor swimming pool though, lol :P

And I thought that I'd have a little trivia (a.k.a unimportant) fact about myself in each of these posts starting with this one: My favorite animal is the hamster and I've owned about 6-8 over the years (or 6-7, depending on how you count the one my cousin gave me who did not live very long). I owned them all one at a time except for once when my cousin gave me one. I think they are the cutest animal in the world with excellent temperament and curious little minds. I love how they eat almost anything edible, too :)

That's a pic of my hamster, Berri, from a long time ago. Heheh, from when I used an account on some random site :3 His fur looks a bit weird since I have sweaty palms but was holding him still before the pic x3

It's thundering outside, so I'll be heading offline soon :)

No more dilly-dallying or wasting time. I'm a happy person and the world is my oyster, thank God. Taking small steps tomorrow and praying for mercy and big positive results.

Watching True Beauty now, ha ha. Going to head offline right now~ ttytmorrow :) Bye guys~



Heheh, btw, I thought that video was cute. Cute clothes + I love gum = nice commercial [lol]. Anyone knows who's singing? So cute~ tty :3 And I had my Spanish final today~ I think I got a "B" but praying for better :)

3 Days Left of School

To-do list:

1. Finish chemistry homework
2. Study for senses exam
3. Write letter

Currently: Thanking God for his mercy

Reading: The Tenth Justice by Brad Meltzer - I only have about 3 days left to read since my crush needs it back before school lets out (p. 380/483 right now) - also need to hurry up and finish reading that Artemis Fowl book a teacher lent me.

Recent Realizations: I think I want to go to a women's college :) Scripps accepts transfer credits without much hassle and has a beautiful campus. Can anyone think of the specific negatives and positives of going to an all-women's college? Please comment if you know ;)

Everything's going well. That seat is mine and I'm going to be taking college-level Pre-Calculus Algebra/Trigonometry this summer! Yeah!

Btw~

In case you were wondering what the ABO in "NU ABO" is about, it relates to blood types. Basically f(x) was saying that they're a new "blood" a.k.a. style and everything to the K-pop & general music world.

NU A.B.O.

Currently Listening to: NU ABO by f(x)

One of the greatest groups so far. I used to like 2NE1 a lot, but I did not really care for their last song, "Follow Me". (Hey, I save my loyalty for things that really matter ;) )

I was thinking about starting my blog on WordPress, but they charge for so many things that Blogger has for free, and it is so hard to use! I could not even find an easy was to edit the layout and when I tried using CSS a notification said I had to pay to save the changes.

Well, we can all see how that turned out ;)

Testing, testing

Um, hehe, was just testing to see if posting with my mobile really worked :P
Well, thank God I got a new phone recently and I just finished eating some watermelon and cheese (don't worry, I was just being random :P)